June 17, 2014
A day I will never forget.
A day that turned my life upside down.
A day that forever changed my world.

It started with a seemingly innocent phone call.
Three little words.
"Kim, it's cancer," my doctor said.
In my mind I know I could not have possibly heard that right.
I have to remind myself to breathe.
"What?"
"Your biopsy came back positive for cancer."

I HAVE CANCER...

I had so many thoughts running through my mind.
It can't be cancer, I am only 35.
It can't be cancer, I have 3 little kids.
It can't be cancer, I am having our 4th child in 3 days.

I don't know if I can handle this.

How can I be feeling so many emotions at the same time?

Mad
Scared
Hopeful
Angry
Terrified
Grateful
Robbed

I never imagined cancer would be my reality. I just want to go back in time.  Go back to sleep so I don't have to think about it but wake up without it being a new day.

How am I going to tell my husband, the kids and our families?

No one should have to meet with an oncologist the day before having a baby.

Finding strength and courage is hard right now, crying comes easy.

I will not take this news as a death sentence, I will accept my fate and cherish everyday.  I will have a new outlook on life.  I am determined to fight this.

Fight for my incredibly strong, supportive, loving, at every appointment husband.

Fight for my concerned Abigail who is having to grow up too fast to help her tired mom.

Fight for my sweet Kaden who just wants me to get better.

Fight for my loving Alyssa who wants to give all my owies kisses.

Fight for my little Gage who just needs his mommy.

Fight for my family.